footprints

sometimes i feel like this summer is slipping away too quickly, but in slow motion. i’m trying to stay motivated about applying to seminary. even though i’ve been think about photo journalism… weird, i know, and maybe not possible, wait, anything is possible. i guess that best sums up the way i feel right now. which is making the inevitable and concrete plans i have seem scary. i’m not talking about city year. i’m crazy excited about city year. i just think about all my possibilities. and i’m not scared that i’ll have to pick and choose and not fulfill some of my dreams, but rather, i’m exited that i can do it all. i hope it lasts J leaving is only hard because there are going to be some people that i’ll miss, A LOT. but i know that i want my life to take me to a multitude of places and through a wide variety of experience. and the fact that the people i meet and love in each of those places and the people i grow with through all of those experiences will be my souvenirs, the evidence and memory of what i did and all the good and good times that came out of it. i’ll stay in touch with them, i WILL stay in touch with the ones that change me and they’ll remind me of who i am. of everything that makes up the complicated pattern of my soul, my existence. they will be the proof all over the country (and hopefully, the world) that i exist.